A few days ago, I experienced a rush of emotions that was alien to me. Thinking about it now, I know what the root cause was, but I also think that I could have handled it better. Anyways, I learnt my lessons and I want to share that with you.
We are emotional beings and that means that once in a while, emotions kick in and we behave or respond in a manner that is not consistent with our character. I learnt this week that it is very important that you have a good grip of your emotions and don’t let them control you.
I have been very stressed for a few weeks now jostling a lot of things together at once and just when I thought I had everything under control, all hell broke loose and things went south all at once. Inside, I was a mess but outside, I maintained a calm exterior while trying to resolve the many issues that were arising almost on a per minute basis each of them requiring urgent attention.
I picked Madam up after work this faithful day to attend our counseling session which has been running every week for a while now, and I can’t remember for sure what triggered it, but I just sunk into a mood which gradually drained the smile from me and made me suddenly angry. Madam noticed and was trying to draw me out of it and instead of taking the outlet she was offering me, I allowed myself sink deeper into the bad mood. As if in response, my car started to misbehave in the middle of the road and that triggered more anger because the car just returned from servicing and should be in a great condition (I think that’s why we spend so much to service them so that they would serve us better right?) well, that wasn’t the case for me.
I was to host an online service on Twitter, and we had agreed that when it was time, Madam would drive so that I could tweet. She took the wheels and just at that very moment, my network provider that claims to be everywhere you go decided to depart from my car and my tweets weren’t going through. All that could go wrong was going wrong at the same time and somehow I knew I had the power to stop it all but I just couldn’t get myself to snap out of it.
I still can’t explain how Kamsi had the patience to just keep turning the ignition each time the car went off which was like every other minute and she just carried on as if it wasn’t a big deal. Bottom line, I was very vexed but also, I knew that my anger wasn’t towards any of the petty things that were going on; it was more deep seated than that so I just kept quiet and tried to blank out.
We got to my Pastor’s place, and while we were waiting, I heard that Still Small voice say to me; “Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest”.
That was exactly what I needed cos I realized that I had been so pre-occupied trying to figure out how to resolve all the issues ahead of me and in front of me that I forgot to be grateful for ALL He has done and there I was making effort on my own, exerting energy, forming super-man when all I needed to do was go to Him in with all my worries.
Are you in that spot where nothing seems to be working? You don’t have a clue where your next help will come from? Are businesses that were doing exceptionally well all of a sudden disintegrating right before your eyes? The relationship that was rock solid, all of a sudden isn’t working out? I want to assure you that there is hope.
I don’t know what the issue may be that has gotten you so down trodden and heavy hearted. Sleepless nights may have become a norm for you and maybe it has even made your blood pressure to shoot up, I have good news for you, Christ is calling you today to lay it all down at His feet and draw near unto Him. Believe in Him and trust Him enough to come through for you. My God will come through for you if you believe.
It may not make logical sense and trust me, most times it doesn’t. but all God is asking of you is to trust Him enough to hand over your worries to Him.
The moment I calmed down, handed everything over to Him in prayer and apologized to Madam, as we were leaving the venue of the meeting, the same car that was giving issues while we were coming, did not disturb me through that long journey. Network returned to the phone and all was well again.
I learnt the huge lesson never to let my emotions get the better of me rather in everything through prayers and supplications, I should make my worries known unto God and that is the model I have adopted.
What about you?
Remember how He asked if any of us by worrying have been able to add a cubic centimeter to our hair? Well, I am yet to meet a man who can say that worry did him/her good.
So like the saying goes; why worry when you can pray…
@IamOluwaObinna and I am committed to your Peak Performance.